Letter From Mia:
How are you?
I thought I'd take a few minutes to introduce myself.
I'm know by some as bulimia nervosa, but seeing how we'll become so close, you can just call me mia.
That's what my best friends call me. My loyal friends.
Over time, you will become my loyal friend too.
Sometimes you might feel more of a servant, but then you will think of all I do for you and remember that I am your only true friend.
You know how everyone around you, all those girls, seem like they have it so easy, I hate that!
And I hate for you to feel less, which is why from now on, I will provide you with encouragement, and inspiration to achieve what you thought you never could.
Prove all the nasty comments wrong.
Also, I cannot spend my life with someone not worthy...so you will have to prove yourself to me.
I'll try to hang out with you as much as possible, but nobody will know.
Only you will know when I'm around.
You will know when you eat something, you will know when you see that chocolate cake on the counter, because I will in the back of your mind telling you things.
Sometimes I will tell you not to eat it, and you will listen.
Other times, you will disobey me and devour the entire cake.
Then I will really make you feel guilty.
You should have followed my orders!
Now go and throw that cake up you FAT COW!
How could you do that to yourself?
You will take my comments to heart, and go into the bathroom, turn on the faucet, and force yourself to vomit.
You will spend hours vomiting at times.
Your face will be red, snot will pour, your eyes will be bloodshot, you jaw will hurt of swollen glands...serves you right!
If you want to be my friend and get the full effect of what I can give you, you must follow my orders.
You will soon learn that I am in control.
Even when you don't do as I say, you can still hear me, screaming at you, telling you to work harder, telling you to take diet pills, telling you how fat you are, telling you what those people across the room are really whispering about.
I am sure after a while of this, you will grow to hate me, but you will love me even more.
You will love me so much you won't tell anyone about me.
If you do, I risk being destroyed, and you don't want that do you?
You will have invested so much of your time in me, that you will no longer have anyone else.
You have no choice, me or complete solitude.
If I'm gone, fat and cellulite will take my place.
Which would you rather have?
So you must not tell anyone about me.
Even if you did, some people would likey not believe you and worse, think you are out for the attention.
So hold your head high and look confident.
With my help, you can look just as great as your favorite models and actresses.
You can look better.
I have to go now, but think of me often.
Think of me all the time!
I am the only one who TRULY wants you to feel loved.
Remember that.
Sincerely, Mia
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