Dear Ana:
I offer you my soul, my heart and my bodily functions. I give you all my earthly possessions.
I seek your wisdom, your faith and your feather weight.
I pledge to obtain the ability to float, to lower my weight to the single digits, I pledge to stare into space, to fear food, and to see obese images in the mirror.
I will worship you and pledge to be a faithful servant until death does us part.
If I cheat on you and procreate with Ronald McDonald, Dave Thomas, the colonel or that cute little dog.
I will kneel over my toilet and thrust my fingers deep in my throat and pray for your forgiveness.
Please Ana, don't give up on me. I'm so weak, I know, but only you with your strength inside me will I become a woman worthy of love and respect.
I'm begging for you not to give up, I'm pleading with my shallow breathes and my pale skin.
I bleed for you, suffer leg pains, headaches and fainting spells.
My love for you makes me dizzy and confused I don't know whether I'm coming or going.
Men run when they see the love I have for you and never return.
But they aren't important to me all that's important is that you love me.
If you stay with me, I will worship you daily, I will run miles a day, come rain, snow, bitter cold or searing heat I will run from the pain and in fright.
I will do 1,000 sit ups a day and lie to my family about what I eat and how I feel.
I will stop weeping when I feel your warm arms embrace my shivering body.
I will numb the hunger pains with razor blades and your strength.
Today, I renew our friendship and resolve to be faithful to you year long, life long.
I begin each year with a 3 day fast in honor of you.
If you give me the strength to fade away I will love you and worship you forever.
When I'm finally faded to nothing, when you've given me the gift of ending this torturous life.
I will float on to the next world and be thin and beautiful payment for my undying love for you in this world.
I ask only one more thing you, please Ana, remove me from this hell, from this world ASAP.
Please take away this hatred for my pain and allow me to be free and light.
Love Always, Mandi. (insert your own name in place of mine)
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